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[26 Oct 2006|01:06am] why am i being so awful to you? I don't mean any of it, I just worry about us... there's an open seat

bye bye h8redsoul [05 Sep 2006|11:40pm] [ music | kevin devine ] I made this journal on my 16th birthday... I am now 21 years old... I have changed so much since I was 16, I figured it was time for a new lj name... so goodbye h8redsoul (lol @ how long I kept this) and say hello to likecursingkids likecursingkids likecursingkids add me! there's an open seat

hey hey hey, what is going on here?! [30 Aug 2006|02:29am] 16 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

[27 Aug 2006|09:58am] I am the luckiest boy in the world 3 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

[24 Aug 2006|01:07am] I am desperately trying to make connections around this city to form a band. I know people who are already in bands.. which doesn't help directly but I am hoping for some people who know some people kind of action. I'm over the OMJ(ATA) thing.. I get super bummed when I see pictures of them or think about the shows I am missing and how much fun I could be having... but what can I do? I spent almost 3 hours driving around the city tuesday with my sister trying to get her car from the impound lot. It was quite a shitty situation, but I had fun cause it was with stephanie and we usually have a good time when we are getting along. I emptied the remaining boxes around my room today. I guess that means I am here for good now... no going back. I really like it here, the place, the crew, the things to do around the city... but it's not home and there is no Kerry here, so it may never be a completely happy time here. I start classes tomorrow. everything in this post is bullshit i'll never get over what was done no one has to care I wouldn't expect you to i'm done with music I am sick of getting my hopes up only to get destroyed... in the future if anyone in here wants to have anything to do with me if you can't be sure that you will still want to be around me forver, don't even bother if you want to live your life for yourself, don't tell me about it.. just fucking do it if you want to change the world, don't tell me... just fucking do it if you want to break my heart into a million pieces, please spare me the hurt and just ignore me all together this thread is going downhill fast I have never been exceptional at anything in my entire life some people can draw, play music, sing, write, play sports... I can do nothing please don't encourage me and tell me I have talent because I don't it has come to my attention that I am only skilled in making it seem like a have talent long enough for people to catch on I used to always say, well atleast I know I am a good person... but i'm not I am a selfish, hateful, angry, screwed adult still pretending to be 16 I would tell myself that I should grow up.. but what have I to grow up to? no skills, no ambitions, no goals? don't read this and think... shit bryan is depressed blah blah I probably am, it's not a big deal all I have in this world that always seems to be positive is kerry anne... and I will be lucky to see her once in the next two months... cool how that works out something has to happen soon 2 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

richmond is the city that pays me [22 Aug 2006|01:27am] I am in the city and I have been keeping pretty busy since I got here. Hopefully my job will start up soon so I can get some cash flow, and then I can keep really busy. I just don't want this year to be like last year, where I stayed in my dorm room all the time and never did anything. I want to get out and meet people (people who want to make a band with me)... But what I want more than anything is to be with my girlfriend. I miss her so much and every second I am not with her is harder and harder. I just want to be dumb with her, lay in bed and watch tv, go on hot dates, and do frustrating things together. I hope she doesn't forget about me, she is very busy lately... She needs to make time to steal me away from the city. I'm watching Garden State for the second time tonight... such a great movie. Kerry and I have been together for more than 6 months. I can't believe it. Good things rarely stay good for me, but in this case an amazing thing has stayed amazing... and it is only getting better. Classes start in 3 days. I am kind of excited for it. I want to buy Bryan's (other roommates) bike to take to class and stuff, yeah.. that sounds good. Ok.. bed time. night-o <33333333333333333333333 1 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

5am? [17 Aug 2006|05:06am] I can't sleep. I have to move tomorrow. I have to leave the most beautiful girl in the world on this island, and I have to go to Richmond. I'm bummed. I like to pretend I am ok with the band thing, but everytime i think about the shows and stuff I get really down and wish the worst for them. I keep telling myself I will start a band in Richmond, but I don't see it happening. I have been with Kerry so much lately, and it has been the greatest thing in the entire world, and I know I am going to miss her terribly. I just hope she comes out to visit me and doesn't forget about me. We will have been going out for 6 months tomorrow... I don't think she realizes how much she means to me. I watched Click tonight and it was sad like everyone said it was. I got misty. So I saw a horse show, and was surrounded by horses for an entire day... and it was scary. I really need to try and catch a few hours of sleep before the drive. <3 5 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

drew can write lyrics [13 Aug 2006|09:20pm] They cried "Amen" An animal has lost its life Dearly beloved it used to be so fierce jealousy ate away its soul you cant believe half the things you're told A decent story I expected so much more "AMEN!" For were the Carnivore A decent story limb from limb you were tore "AMEN!" for were the Carnivore OH MY GOSH! i saw this coming the whole world is watching now you sure do talk yea, you sure do talk i see no wheelchair so why dont you walk? A decent story I expected so much more "AMEN!" For were the Carnivore A decent story limb from limb you were tore "AMEN!" for were the Carnivore 4 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

what i've learned in 21 years [10 Aug 2006|01:27am] What is the use for a term like "friend"? If everyone in the world is out for themselves... how is this going to benefit me? what can i do to make this best for me? as long as I am benefiting, does it matter if others are hurt? I got kicked out of something that i put my heart in like never before. I put so much time and money into this... and it's over for me. And that's not what has me down... I feel like I've lost 4 of my best friends, 4 guys that I spent so much time with... friendships that were so awesome. Or so I thought, friendships that aren't enough to keep me from getting kicked out... not warn me others wanted me out... still be friends? you guys broke my heart We were doing things, getting tour offers, getting label contacts, making friends and fans.... and then.. i'm out. i miss my friends 8 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

[09 Aug 2006|03:00pm] forget every post on here about omj I just got kicked out of the band see you in richmond 4 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

:) [22 Jun 2006|12:31am] my baby's home <333333333 1 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

i dont know what i'd do without her [19 Jun 2006|11:49pm] kerry is in the Atlantic hospital (just before Ocean City) for problems with her lung (stuff she has been through before) she says she is going to be alright, but she may have to be there for a few days I can't see her tonight, but I will see her tomorrow... I wish I could talk to her tonight atleast... :( if you know her number you should text her nice messages or you can leave her myspace comments or something ( http://www.myspace.com/attackackack ) get better baby!!!!!!!! 1 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

[18 Jun 2006|02:35am] 4months is good times zoo crew! 1 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

[07 Jun 2006|04:35am] it is extremely likely that I have the greatest girlfriend ever 5 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

[01 Jun 2006|01:23am] i'm 21 years old. there's something wrong me... maybe 2 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

[17 May 2006|03:57am] [ music | project 86 ] I hate money I like kerry I like friends I hate never getting enough sleep. I am starting to hate lj. 1 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

chapped lips + sunburn = flipside fest [08 May 2006|01:25am] [ music | the sleeping ] Flipside Fest was a great time. Saw a lot of old faces, saw a lot of good bands, and got a lot of bad for me sun. Then it rained for the last 4 hours, and I am probably going to get sick. Three finals in Two days this week. Two on Tuesday and One on Wednesday. So naturally I should be studying all day Monday, right? Wrong, I am going to Baltimore to see Thursday w/ Minus the Bear and MeWithoutYou... smart. Chincoteague in approximately 72 hours? I want to play a lot of basketball this summer. "If you all came to see a punk rock show... say I love black people!" miss you 3 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

[04 May 2006|09:39pm] [ music | blacklisted ] so, how hard is it to be a good fucking friend? The end is just the beginning of being lost then found, You find yourself wondering how it would be if you weren't around, Here I am, Here I stand, I've reached out my hand, But you had a different plan, I've should have known you were one of the wolves at my door, You drain the life from me, I'm so easily deceived, I just wasn't made to believe, I've given so much energy trying to place the blame around, This time it rests on me for letting my guard down. I should have known, All along, You were one, Of the wolves at my door, Now we're back again at this same old place, I'm just trying to recognize your face, I can't let you in now, That's how it all happens in the first place. I should have known all along, I let you string me along, I was just to stupid to realize, I let myself be compromised. don't bother leaving comments, bitch on your own livejournal

[04 May 2006|12:56am] [ music | cold world ] I don't know if I was caught into this trap. Or born into it. The more I look into my life. The more and more I see my destiny. To work every single day To never have my way. To never see further than five feet in front of my face. Until I'm layed to waste Mother I'm scared of what's becoming of me. Humiliation is all I can see. I'll never be what I long to be. It's hard coming face to face with my own destiny. 1 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

yeah i know i said my lj was going to be important stuff but whatev [01 May 2006|01:02am] [ music | kind of like spitting ] i'm the kind of guy that when I am pissed/sad all I do is surround myself with things that will increase the feelings. Does this make me a masochist? paranoia paranoia paranoia my brain is seriously messed up i'm going to bed before I think anymore i turn 21 is 28 days, I never thought I would live past 16. 1 hope that isn't pee there's an open seat

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